Saturday, June 19, 2004
DAD,
i remember
every single detail. every single drop of tear. every painful torture u put me through. every moment.
did u remember all that dad? i was never good enough. never smart enough. and now, not respectful enough.
when i was born,
mummy wanted to give me away. u disagree. u wanted me. u kept me. u fought for me.when i was still too young to understand, i watched mummy cry because of u. i didnt understand. but i felt it. every tear she shed. it broke my heart. because of u. i feared u. i remembered how i could never sit in a room with u. all i remembered was the rotan cutting my skin with every whip. still i respected u. oblivious.
when i was 13,
u left. without a word. without a sign. without taking anything along. u left. u left us with noting. u left mummy with more n more burden. u left me with tears. every morning. every night i cried. like an orphan whose father just died.
2 years later,
i remembered e smile on ur face when u saw me. i didnt. i wouldnt. u dun deserve anything. nothing. i didnt salam u. just tried acting. my facade worked.
Now,
u still dun realise huh? demanding for respect. screaming at mummy for every single thing. it was u. it had always been u. i respected u. feared u. but why should i. when u are the coward. u should respect us for pulling through all ur shit.
so happy fathers day, dad.
enjoy.
ps:
its been a long hard road without u by myside
Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life
It's not OK but we're alright
10:20:00 pm
